You must be aware of the feeling when you are continuously trying to be independent in all senses; saying what you think you should, able to do whatever you feel like doing, feel however you want to feel, of course rationally and in your senses.
Guess what? I had the sudden realization that the idea of being independent is so impractical that it is nothing more than bullshit.
If being independent, for you, is just standing up on your feet and being able to help yourself then you might not want to read the rest of the post.
No matter how hard you try not to involve people around you in your business, they do get involved. Everyone around you is affected by the shit going on in your life and it is a two way street. Others actions, words, opinions, judgements, perceptions, conclusions affect you equally. So where is the whole concept of independence here? Shouldn’t it be like you share your happiness, creepiness, sorrow or whatever shit only when you want to? Sometimes you just don’t want people to meddle. You just want to make your own mistakes and live your life your way. What makes sense to you doesn’t always have to make sense to others, right?
The worst is when people (and by people I mean all of us) have the habit of indulging in others complicated issues and then suddenly no matter from where the whole issue started it just becomes every one’s business. Swiftly, the focus is gone and everyone just starts thinking about their own perspective, their own opinion, their own judgement and cry about how the situation is harming them. So after making your mistakes if you just want to repent, it is not going to happen. It will be more complicated, it will be worse. Your mistake won’t be just your mistake anymore.
I guess that is just how the things work when you are a social animal. There is a high degree of interdependence and sadly very little independence.
If being independent, for you, is just standing up on your feet and being able to help yourself then you might not want to read the rest of the post.
No matter how hard you try not to involve people around you in your business, they do get involved. Everyone around you is affected by the shit going on in your life and it is a two way street. Others actions, words, opinions, judgements, perceptions, conclusions affect you equally. So where is the whole concept of independence here? Shouldn’t it be like you share your happiness, creepiness, sorrow or whatever shit only when you want to? Sometimes you just don’t want people to meddle. You just want to make your own mistakes and live your life your way. What makes sense to you doesn’t always have to make sense to others, right?
The worst is when people (and by people I mean all of us) have the habit of indulging in others complicated issues and then suddenly no matter from where the whole issue started it just becomes every one’s business. Swiftly, the focus is gone and everyone just starts thinking about their own perspective, their own opinion, their own judgement and cry about how the situation is harming them. So after making your mistakes if you just want to repent, it is not going to happen. It will be more complicated, it will be worse. Your mistake won’t be just your mistake anymore.
I guess that is just how the things work when you are a social animal. There is a high degree of interdependence and sadly very little independence.
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